Thoughts on Becoming a Mother January 19, 2010

One of the wonderful, strong women that I share this journey with posted this today and I just have to share it with everyone.

Thoughts on Becoming a Mother

“There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother.”

The Hunt for a Nintendo Wii for a 30th b-day gift. January 11, 2010

You would not believe me if I were to tell you that I went in over 15 stores and I was NOT able to purchase this darn thing.

It all started on Friday night. One of our friends (and boss) invited Tom to go out and celebrate his 30^th birthday.  They decided to go to Hooters and asked me to be their designated driver.

I don’t mind at all. So, I took them to Hooters, dropped them off and I went to buy the Wii.

I went to Costco because it was the closest to where I was and their price was a little cheaper.

Needless to say they were out of it.

That’s when this crazy quest started. I went to best buy, target, game stop, another target, walmart, sams club, toys r us and NOTHING. Everyone was out.

I was super sad. I had to say something to Tom since that was supposed to be my gift and now I had nothing.

The next day, I talked to him and explained what happened. Although he believed me, he gave me that look that said “sure you went to all those places and nothing”.

So, Saturday morning he called Costco at another little town nearby and asked them. They told him that they had it so we headed that way.

Of course once we got there, they didn’t have it. Then our new quest began. We went to Toys r us, target, sears, game stop, blockbuster, another gaming store, walmart, K-mart and NOTHING!

It was “hilarious” that everyone at those stores would tell us to go to their competitors for it and we were the ones to tell them that they were out. It appeared that they didn’t believe us either.

Apparently it’s AFTER the holidays that people go out and shop for that kind of stuff because all we heard from people was “if you came last week, we had tons of them”. Like that was going to help.

Tom and I were pretty bummed out. But once we got home, my super hubby called best buy and customer service was able to help him. We ended up ordering online and we should get it by the 14^th or so.

It’s not the idea that I had in mind but at least he’s getting the gift that I wanted him to get.

Although our Saturday wasn’t the best one, we did have a good time.

We went for “sushi”, and then we caught a movie. We had fun; we’re always able to have fun with each other.

Happy birthday sweetie. I love you very much.

Family Christmas Letter December 16, 2009

Trying again! December 16, 2009

After some very needed vacation we’re back on and trying again.

We got back from Poland on the 27th and by the 30th I already had an appointment with my doctor. He wanted to see me right away and I was very ok with that.

So we started treatment again. I’ve been taking wonderful shots since December 2nd. Yes….shots, in my stomach. To make things even more “interesting” I’ve been taking 2 different medications as of December 6th. My last double shot was the 14th and man was I happy about that.

Yesterday I went to see my doctor again and it seems that my follicles are all ready to go.  Last night I did my last shot to make those follicles release those eggs. Tomorrow morning is going to be the big day for me.

We’ll have our IUI tomorrow and I’m super excited. I’m already a little sore from the medications and I can’t imagine how tomorrow is going to feel.

Thankfully I’m taking tomorrow off. I want to be able to wake up relaxed and get ready for my appointment, then we can head straight home, snuggle under the covers and watch some movies. Just have some one on one time with my sweet husband.

Then I’ll enter the dreadful two week wait. It’s the worst but I’ll somehow get through it. right?! yes, right.

The holidays are just around the corner and at times I get way too emotional but hopefully we’ll have some great news from this treatment and I’ll be able to be emotional for a good reason.

Pray – Pray – Pray.

We’re back and ready to rock!! December 2, 2009

Our vacation has come to an end and we’re back home. We had a wonderful time in Poland, everyone there was so welcoming and Tom’s family is just wonderful.

Our nieces and nephews are just the cutest things ever. We even tried “stealing” one for ourselves but her dad wasn’t going to let that happen.

We visited many places around Warsaw (which I won’t be able to tell you their names). I’ll check with Tom what their names were then I can post about it.

I’m still not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing that it wasn’t as cold as we expected. We really only had a couple of days that drizzled but that didn’t stop us from walking around or visiting anything.

I was hoping for one day of snow and I unfortunately didn’t get anything. The only time we got anything close to that was the very last day there. As if the weather new that we were leaving or something. We had some major frost, but that was it.

To our surprise the weather was worst here in CA than it was in Poland. We arrived on Friday night and that same night there was snow on the mountains and I got to see that. How funny is that?!

Talking about Friday. First I have to say that I really don’t like flying. It’s not my favorite thing to do at all. Going from LA to Chicago was great. We got emergency exit seats (because Tom is so darn tall) and although we had some trouble checking in (our flight was suppose to be at 9am but they changed it to 8:20am) the flight itself was no problem.

Now the flight from Chicago to Poland was another story. The people from that airline were not friendly at all. Seriously, what is wrong with those people? We did the same thing we always do, went up to them and asked if we could get emergency seats due to Tom’s height, they said ok that they would look into it and then they acted like jackasses .

Eventually when we got into the plane (there were two emergency seats available) and Tom asked the flight attendant to change seats. He said that he would look into it. We eventually got the seats, but they split us up. I was so not happy about that. I hate take offs and landing and I had to seat by myself during takeoff. Tom eventually convinced the lady to switch seats with me and all was ok.

Three hours before landing an old lady seating behind us started to feel bad and things were not looking good for her. Luckily the lady who switched seats with us was a doctor and was able to assist her and care for her.

I have to note that man oh man have the seats gotten shorter and narrower than before.  I have wide hips (ok, not THAT wide) and Tom has long legs……it’s not a good combination.

When we flew back we again had trouble with the same airline. They would not give Tom the emergency seats and he flew for 9 hours cramped in like a sardine. I felt so bad for him.

Luckily when we switched airline from Chicago to LA they were super nice and gave us the extra leg room for Tom. I have to say that flight was the smoothest flight I’ve ever had. I loved it. Whoever the pilot was, he did a great, wonderful job.

Anyway, we had a great time in Poland and it was hard leaving them behind. It was a very bitter sweet feeling leaving Poland. We didn’t want to leave our family behind but we sure missed our home, our dogs….our life here.

Here we are now. I already went to see my doctor and we’re ready to start trying again. As of today I’ve already started my injection and I’ll keep that up until next week.

I really hope that we can have a Christmas miracle. Please pray for us.

PS: I’ll post some pictures of our vacation once we get them all organized.

All packed up and ready to go! November 12, 2009

This is it; today we’re heading to LA after work. Yesterday was a little crazy. After work, we went to get our haircuts and after that we headed home to make sure that we’ve packed everything that we needed.

Of course we had a list of things that we already packed but you know how it is. The list kind of got tossed to the side and we just started to put things inside of the bags. We realized that we could just take two suite cases (one each) but if we did that then we wouldn’t be able to bring anything back from Poland. So we decided to pack a small bag to take with us so we can bring things back if we need to.

I think that we packed enough warm clothing (I hope so) and we should be ok.

I’m taking a carry-on bag with me where I’ll take some long johns and socks so we can put that one before landing.

Our poor car looks so full, it’s ridiculous. I truly amaze my own self on how I’m able to fit so many things inside of my car.

Right now we have a big dog crate (where Hershey travels in), one BIG suite case (that’s mine), one medium/large suite case for Tom and one smallish one for the both of us. Then I have a bag with my dog’s things, a container with their food, our carry one bags and I still have to fit my medication bag plus the dog’s bowls. OMG!!! I have a Ford Escape not a van or bus……..how in the world…..

Anyway, so far it fits, we’ll see if we’ll make it to LA. I surely hope so since it’s suppose to rain today and I really don’t want to get stuck on the road with a car full of stuff and three dogs inside of.

I looked online for the weather forecast for Poland and I found a 15 day forecast. If nothing changes then I guess I’ll be getting some snow after all.

Here’s the forecast.

Tuesday, Nov 17

A morning shower in spots; otherwise, low clouds. Winds from the WSW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 49 °F

Tuesday Night, Nov 17

Cloudy with a passing shower late.

Winds from the SSW at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 33 °F     Low: 39 °F

Wednesday, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the SW at 13 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    High: 45 °F

Wednesday Night, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the WNW at 17 mph.

Realfeel®: 25 °F    Low: 36 °F

Thursday, Nov 19

Cloudy. Winds from the NW at 11 mph.

Realfeel®: 44 °F    High: 51 °F

Thursday Night, Nov 19

Occasional rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    Low: 43 °F

Friday, Nov 20

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 37 °F    High: 44 °F

Friday Night, Nov 20

Rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 26 °F    Low: 33 °F

Saturday, Nov 21

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 8 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    High: 40 °F

Saturday Night, Nov 21

Snow and rain at times. Winds from the N    at 7 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    Low: 37°F

Sunday, Nov 22

Low clouds. Winds from the N at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 45 °F

Sunday Night, Nov 22

Plenty of clouds. Winds from the N at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 39 °F    Low: 41 °F

Monday, Nov 23

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 4 mph.

Realfeel®: 50 °F    High: 50 °F

Monday Night, Nov 23

Low clouds. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 44 °F    Low: 42 °F

Tuesday, Nov 24

Low clouds. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 45 °F    High: 44 °F

Tuesday Night, Nov 24

Low clouds. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 40 °F    Low: 38 °F

Wednesday, Nov 25

Intervals of clouds and sunshine. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 45 °F    High: 43 °F

Wednesday Night, Nov 25

Partly cloudy. Winds from the S at 4 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    Low: 36 °F

Thursday, Nov 26

Considerable cloudiness. Winds from the WSW at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 43 °F

Thursday Night, Nov 26

Rain and freezing rain. Winds from the WSW at 12 mph.

Realfeel®: 19 °F    Low 31°F

 

Tuesday, Nov 17

A morning shower in spots; otherwise, low clouds. Winds from the WSW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 49 °F

Tuesday Night, Nov 17

Cloudy with a passing shower late.

Winds from the SSW at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 33 °F     Low: 39 °F

Wednesday, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the SW at 13 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    High: 45 °F

Wednesday Night, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the WNW at 17 mph.

Realfeel®: 25 °F    Low: 36 °F

Thursday, Nov 19

Cloudy. Winds from the NW at 11 mph.

Realfeel®: 44 °F    High: 51 °F

Thursday Night, Nov 19

Occasional rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    Low: 43 °F

Friday, Nov 20

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 37 °F    High: 44 °F

Friday Night, Nov 20

Rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 26 °F    Low: 33 °F

Saturday, Nov 21

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 8 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    High: 40 °F

Saturday Night, Nov 21

Snow and rain at times. Winds from the N    at 7 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    Low: 37°F

A letter to my angel baby. November 6, 2009

November 6, 2009

Hi my angel baby,

This is not easy for me but I’m going to try my best to write you this letter.

The day that we found out that you were inside of me was the happiest moment of our lives. Mommy and daddy were so happy that we couldn’t contain our tears.
Everyday that I carried you inside of me was the happiest days of our lives. I was so very happy, it’s a feeling that I can’t even begin to express.

The first time that we saw you in that monitor were for sure the happiest we’ve ever been. There you were, snuggled inside of me. You heart was beating away; we could see the flickering in the monitor. It was absolutely beautiful.

The love that we felt and feel for you is something that we’ll never forget and we’ll be forever in our hearts.

So many people were happy for us to have you in our lives. Your grandparents were so happy. Grandma cried so hard when she found out you were coming. Your great-grandmas were also so very happy they were even making plans to come see you at your arrival.

I need you to know that we love you more than words can say.  You were surrounded by so much love, I made sure to talk to you everyday.  Not a single day went by without me letting you know how much I loved you.

The second time we got to see you was a very special moment too. It was the very first time we got to listen to your heart beating. Daddy was so very excited about it. He couldn’t contain himself, he told everyone how amazing your little heart sounded like.  We didn’t know it yet but that was the last time we would watch your little heart beating.

The day that God took you in his arms was a very sad day for us. Mommy & daddy wanted you for ourselves so badly that it was (and still is) very hard to accept that you were meant to be somewhere else, that you were meant to be in His arms and not ours.

I wish I had the chance to hold you in my arms, look into your eyes and be able to tell you how much I love you.  I wish I could watch you grow and explore this crazy world of ours. I wish you were here with me.

I believe that you are in heaven and that you’re a beautiful angel with blond curls and big bright eyes. I hope that you’re at a much better place where all you can feel is happiness. One day we’ll be together again and I’ll be able to look into your eyes and finally let you know how much you were loved.

Tomorrow was suppose to be your very first “party”, we were going to throw a party to celebrate you.  I won’t be an easy day for me as I’ll be missing you more than ever but know that I’ll be thinking of you every since second of the day. I’ll be celebrating you. I’ll be loving you and cherishing you .

Thank you for making us the happiest parents even if it was for a short while.

PS: Love you ‘till the end.

The Polish weather awaits me. November 5, 2009

Historical Summary for November 14 – November 27

Temperature: The Average High Temperature is 40 F with a historical range of 14 F to 60 F The Average Low Temperature is 31 F with a historical range of 5 F to 50 F There is a 0% chance of a Hot Day (temperature over 90°F / 32°C). (0 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 0 There is a 1% chance of a Warm Day (temperature over 60°F / 16°C). (1 day out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 1 There is a 47% chance of a Freezing Day (temperature below 32°F / 0°C). (85 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 13

Cloud Cover: Average Cloud Cover is partly cloudy There is a 65% chance of a Cloudy Day. (117 days out of 181 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 13

Wind: The Average Wind is 8 mph with a historical range of 0 mph to 28 mph There is a 27% chance of a Windy Day (average wind over 10 mph / 15km/h). (50 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 5

Humidity:

The Average High Dew Point is 37 F with a historical range of 10 F to 54 F

The Average Low Dew Point is 30 F with a historical range of 3 F to 48 F

There is a 0% chance of a Humid Day (dew point over 65°F / 18°C). (0 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 0 Daily Observations 2008 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2008/11/14 44 40 35 39 39 36 100 98 81 30.33 30.30 30.15 6 2 0 13 5 - 0.00 Fog 2008/11/15 50 47 44 46 37 37 100 86 76 30.15 30.13 30.06 6 4 2 17 11 28 0.00 Rain 2008/11/16 51 46 41 46 45 37 93 82 62 30.06 30.05 29.86 6 6 4 25 15 43 0.00 Rain 2008/11/17 41 36 30 39 37 27 93 85 70 30.24 30.06 29.89 6 6 6 22 19 32 0.00 Rain 2008/11/18 39 30 21 32 26 21 100 85 65 30.24 29.96 29.68 6 6 4 18 2 30 0.00 Snow 2008/11/19 44 38 33 43 31 28 100 91 75 29.71 29.64 29.44 6 5 1 25 17 37 0.00 Rain , Snow 2008/11/20 46 44 41 45 43 36 93 92 76 29.44 29.40 29.24 6 6 4 28 22 40 0.00 Rain 2008/11/21 41 36 32 36 36 28 100 80 65 29.30 29.30 29.15 6 6 2 21 15 32 0.00 Rain , Snow 2008/11/22 30 29 28 30 30 23 100 89 75 29.21 29.18 29.12 6 5 1 14 8 23 0.00 Snow 2008/11/23 33 30 28 30 27 25 100 94 80 29.30 29.10 29.06 6 5 1 21 9 32 0.00 Snow 2008/11/24 33 30 28 30 26 23 100 80 65 29.47 29.29 29.27 6 6 2 15 11 - 0.00 Snow 2008/11/25 35 32 28 32 30 27 100 89 70 29.83 29.61 29.47 6 5 2 13 4 - 0.00 Snow 2008/11/26 35 34 32 36 30 28 100 93 87 30.04 29.94 29.83 6 5 2 14 10 - 0.00 Rain , Snow 2008/11/27 42 38 35 41 36 36 100 96 93 30.06 29.95 29.92 5 3 2 16 14 26 0.00 Rain 2007 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2007/11/14 35 32 30 34 33 30 100 99 87 29.86 29.63 29.50 6 5 2 7 5 - 0.00 Snow 2007/11/15 33 30 26 32 31 25 100 97 81 30.12 29.95 29.86 6 5 3 15 4 - 0.00 Snow 2007/11/16 30 26 23 30 25 23 100 94 86 30.24 30.12 30.12 6 4 1 13 9 - 0.00 2007/11/17 35 32 30 34 28 28 100 92 87 30.24 30.21 30.18 6 4 2 9 9 - 0.00 2007/11/18 33 30 28 32 32 28 100 97 93 30.24 30.24 30.15 6 3 1 16 4 - 0.00 2007/11/19 32 30 28 30 30 28 100 96 87 30.24 30.15 30.15 6 5 2 16 13 - 0.00 2007/11/20 32 29 26 32 30 27 100 100 100 30.24 30.18 30.18 2 1 0 7 7 - 0.00 Fog 2007/11/21 39 32 26 37 27 27 100 100 87 30.15 30.14 29.98 6 2 0 8 4 - 0.00 Fog 2007/11/22 41 32 24 36 28 25 100 94 76 29.98 29.97 29.92 5 3 2 7 5 - 0.00 2007/11/23 50 41 32 43 32 32 100 91 76 29.95 29.89 29.86 6 4 2 9 5 - 0.00 Fog 2007/11/24 42 40 37 41 38 30 100 92 70 30.15 29.99 29.95 6 4 1 14 7 - 0.00 Rain 2007/11/25 41 37 33 36 29 28 93 82 70 30.09 29.89 29.68 6 6 4 16 6 - 0.00 Rain 2007/11/26 39 36 32 36 36 30 100 89 81 29.68 29.64 29.53 6 6 1 18 10 31 0.00 Rain , Snow 2007/11/27 35 32 30 34 30 28 100 89 87 30.01 29.79 29.68 6 5 1 20 16 29 0.00 Rain , Snow 2006 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2006/11/14 50 44 37 45 41 36 100 92 82 29.86 29.62 29.42 7 6 3 20 13 29 0.00 Rain 2006/11/15 55 50 46 52 43 43 94 88 82 29.98 29.86 29.86 7 6 3 14 8 - 0.00 Rain 2006/11/16 59 48 37 48 43 37 100 87 67 29.98 29.98 29.92 7 6 3 10 7 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/17 55 46 37 48 42 37 100 92 72 30.04 29.95 29.95 7 3 0 6 4 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/18 51 44 37 48 41 37 100 96 82 30.12 30.05 30.04 5 2 0 10 4 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/19 48 46 44 46 46 45 100 98 93 30.24 30.15 30.06 4 1 0 9 5 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/20 50 47 44 48 45 45 100 100 93 30.06 30.04 29.98 7 2 0 12 10 - 0.00 Fog , Rain 2006/11/21 50 47 44 46 45 43 100 99 82 29.98 29.80 29.59 4 2 0 13 2 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/22 50 46 42 45 43 41 100 93 82 29.62 29.59 29.56 7 4 2 10 9 - 0.00 Rain 2006/11/23 46 44 42 45 45 43 100 98 87 29.71 29.62 29.62 7 4 2 14 6 - 0.00 Rain 2006/11/24 51 44 37 46 43 37 100 88 76 29.98 29.78 29.71 7 4 2 14 12 - 0.00 Fog , Rain 2006/11/25 50 44 37 43 39 37 100 90 76 30.04 29.98 29.95 5 3 1 12 4 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/26 55 46 37 48 42 37 100 90 77 30.24 30.07 30.04 7 4 2 7 5 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/27 46 40 35 46 41 36 100 97 93 30.33 30.24 30.24 4 1 0 6 5 - 0.00 Fog 2005 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2005/11/14 46 40 33 37 37 34 100 83 71 30.30 30.29 30.09 7 5 4 13 5 - 0.00 2005/11/15 50 44 37 37 34 34 87 75 58 30.06 29.73 29.50 7 6 4 17 8 - 0.00 2005/11/16 42 38 35 39 35 34 100 92 76 29.50 29.50 29.33 7 5 2 13 11 - 0.00 Rain 2005/11/17 39 36 33 37 37 28 100 91 70 29.71 29.48 29.33 7 6 4 16 5 26 0.00 Rain , Snow 2005/11/18 35 34 32 32 32 28 93 89 75 30.06 29.84 29.71 7 6 2 16 13 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/19 33 30 28 30 28 27 100 92 80 30.21 30.06 30.06 7 5 1 10 5 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/20 33 30 28 30 27 27 93 92 81 30.21 30.18 30.12 7 6 3 12 5 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/21 33 30 26 30 29 23 100 86 69 30.27 30.12 30.12 7 6 1 14 4 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/22 33 30 26 32 27 27 100 96 87 30.54 30.32 30.24 7 5 2 13 12 - 0.00 Rain , Snow 2005/11/23 33 32 32 34 32 32 100 100 93 30.54 30.54 30.42 2 2 1 5 2 - 0.00 Fog , Rain , Snow 2005/11/24 32 28 23 32 30 19 100 93 86 30.42 30.06 29.77 7 3 1 13 6 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/25 32 30 26 30 27 25 100 95 86 29.77 29.55 29.42 4 3 1 13 9 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/26 33 28 24 34 26 23 100 92 86 29.62 29.55 29.53 4 3 1 9 6 - 0.00 Rain , Snow 2005/11/27 42 38 33 39 34 34 100 97 81 29.56 29.50 29.30 7 5 0 12 8 - 0.00 Rain

2008	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2008	44	40	35	39	39	36	100	98	81	30.33	30.3	30.15	6	2	0	13	5	-	0	Fog
11/15/2008	50	47	44	46	37	37	100	86	76	30.15	30.13	30.06	6	4	2	17	11	28	0	Rain
11/16/2008	51	46	41	46	45	37	93	82	62	30.06	30.05	29.86	6	6	4	25	15	43	0	Rain
11/17/2008	41	36	30	39	37	27	93	85	70	30.24	30.06	29.89	6	6	6	22	19	32	0	Rain
11/18/2008	39	30	21	32	26	21	100	85	65	30.24	29.96	29.68	6	6	4	18	2	30	0	Snow
11/19/2008	44	38	33	43	31	28	100	91	75	29.71	29.64	29.44	6	5	1	25	17	37	0	Rain , Snow
11/20/2008	46	44	41	45	43	36	93	92	76	29.44	29.4	29.24	6	6	4	28	22	40	0	Rain
11/21/2008	41	36	32	36	36	28	100	80	65	29.3	29.3	29.15	6	6	2	21	15	32	0	Rain , Snow
11/22/2008	30	29	28	30	30	23	100	89	75	29.21	29.18	29.12	6	5	1	14	8	23	0	Snow
11/23/2008	33	30	28	30	27	25	100	94	80	29.3	29.1	29.06	6	5	1	21	9	32	0	Snow
11/24/2008	33	30	28	30	26	23	100	80	65	29.47	29.29	29.27	6	6	2	15	11	-	0	Snow
11/25/2008	35	32	28	32	30	27	100	89	70	29.83	29.61	29.47	6	5	2	13	4	-	0	Snow
11/26/2008	35	34	32	36	30	28	100	93	87	30.04	29.94	29.83	6	5	2	14	10	-	0	Rain , Snow
11/27/2008	42	38	35	41	36	36	100	96	93	30.06	29.95	29.92	5	3	2	16	14	26	0	Rain
2007	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2007	35	32	30	34	33	30	100	99	87	29.86	29.63	29.5	6	5	2	7	5	-	0	Snow
11/15/2007	33	30	26	32	31	25	100	97	81	30.12	29.95	29.86	6	5	3	15	4	-	0	Snow
11/16/2007	30	26	23	30	25	23	100	94	86	30.24	30.12	30.12	6	4	1	13	9	-	0
11/17/2007	35	32	30	34	28	28	100	92	87	30.24	30.21	30.18	6	4	2	9	9	-	0
11/18/2007	33	30	28	32	32	28	100	97	93	30.24	30.24	30.15	6	3	1	16	4	-	0
11/19/2007	32	30	28	30	30	28	100	96	87	30.24	30.15	30.15	6	5	2	16	13	-	0
11/20/2007	32	29	26	32	30	27	100	100	100	30.24	30.18	30.18	2	1	0	7	7	-	0	Fog
11/21/2007	39	32	26	37	27	27	100	100	87	30.15	30.14	29.98	6	2	0	8	4	-	0	Fog
11/22/2007	41	32	24	36	28	25	100	94	76	29.98	29.97	29.92	5	3	2	7	5	-	0
11/23/2007	50	41	32	43	32	32	100	91	76	29.95	29.89	29.86	6	4	2	9	5	-	0	Fog
11/24/2007	42	40	37	41	38	30	100	92	70	30.15	29.99	29.95	6	4	1	14	7	-	0	Rain
11/25/2007	41	37	33	36	29	28	93	82	70	30.09	29.89	29.68	6	6	4	16	6	-	0	Rain
11/26/2007	39	36	32	36	36	30	100	89	81	29.68	29.64	29.53	6	6	1	18	10	31	0	Rain , Snow
11/27/2007	35	32	30	34	30	28	100	89	87	30.01	29.79	29.68	6	5	1	20	16	29	0	Rain , Snow
2006	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2006	50	44	37	45	41	36	100	92	82	29.86	29.62	29.42	7	6	3	20	13	29	0	Rain
11/15/2006	55	50	46	52	43	43	94	88	82	29.98	29.86	29.86	7	6	3	14	8	-	0	Rain
11/16/2006	59	48	37	48	43	37	100	87	67	29.98	29.98	29.92	7	6	3	10	7	-	0	Fog
11/17/2006	55	46	37	48	42	37	100	92	72	30.04	29.95	29.95	7	3	0	6	4	-	0	Fog
11/18/2006	51	44	37	48	41	37	100	96	82	30.12	30.05	30.04	5	2	0	10	4	-	0	Fog
11/19/2006	48	46	44	46	46	45	100	98	93	30.24	30.15	30.06	4	1	0	9	5	-	0	Fog
11/20/2006	50	47	44	48	45	45	100	100	93	30.06	30.04	29.98	7	2	0	12	10	-	0	Fog , Rain
11/21/2006	50	47	44	46	45	43	100	99	82	29.98	29.8	29.59	4	2	0	13	2	-	0	Fog
11/22/2006	50	46	42	45	43	41	100	93	82	29.62	29.59	29.56	7	4	2	10	9	-	0	Rain
11/23/2006	46	44	42	45	45	43	100	98	87	29.71	29.62	29.62	7	4	2	14	6	-	0	Rain
11/24/2006	51	44	37	46	43	37	100	88	76	29.98	29.78	29.71	7	4	2	14	12	-	0	Fog , Rain
11/25/2006	50	44	37	43	39	37	100	90	76	30.04	29.98	29.95	5	3	1	12	4	-	0	Fog
11/26/2006	55	46	37	48	42	37	100	90	77	30.24	30.07	30.04	7	4	2	7	5	-	0	Fog
11/27/2006	46	40	35	46	41	36	100	97	93	30.33	30.24	30.24	4	1	0	6	5	-	0	Fog
2005	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2005	46	40	33	37	37	34	100	83	71	30.3	30.29	30.09	7	5	4	13	5	-	0
11/15/2005	50	44	37	37	34	34	87	75	58	30.06	29.73	29.5	7	6	4	17	8	-	0
11/16/2005	42	38	35	39	35	34	100	92	76	29.5	29.5	29.33	7	5	2	13	11	-	0	Rain
11/17/2005	39	36	33	37	37	28	100	91	70	29.71	29.48	29.33	7	6	4	16	5	26	0	Rain , Snow
11/18/2005	35	34	32	32	32	28	93	89	75	30.06	29.84	29.71	7	6	2	16	13	-	0	Snow
11/19/2005	33	30	28	30	28	27	100	92	80	30.21	30.06	30.06	7	5	1	10	5	-	0	Snow
11/20/2005	33	30	28	30	27	27	93	92	81	30.21	30.18	30.12	7	6	3	12	5	-	0	Snow
11/21/2005	33	30	26	30	29	23	100	86	69	30.27	30.12	30.12	7	6	1	14	4	-	0	Snow
11/22/2005	33	30	26	32	27	27	100	96	87	30.54	30.32	30.24	7	5	2	13	12	-	0	Rain , Snow
11/23/2005	33	32	32	34	32	32	100	100	93	30.54	30.54	30.42	2	2	1	5	2	-	0	Fog , Rain , Snow
11/24/2005	32	28	23	32	30	19	100	93	86	30.42	30.06	29.77	7	3	1	13	6	-	0	Snow
11/25/2005	32	30	26	30	27	25	100	95	86	29.77	29.55	29.42	4	3	1	13	9	-	0	Snow
11/26/2005	33	28	24	34	26	23	100	92	86	29.62	29.55	29.53	4	3	1	9	6	-	0	Rain , Snow
11/27/2005	42	38	33	39	34	34	100	97	81	29.56	29.5	29.3	7	5	0	12	8	-	0	Rain

A dreadful weekend is in sight. November 3, 2009

I knew this day would come and I’m dreading it.  This upcoming Saturday was supposed to be our baby shower. I remember thinking about it back when we lost the baby and how scared I was that I would be super sad when the day arrived.

Last month someone reminded me of this day but I was able to brush it off and not think about it too much.  I thought that I was going to be able to do the same if this thought were to enter my head again.

WRONG!!! For the past couple of days I’ve been thinking about our baby a lot and I tried not to give too much attention to it. After all, there’s so much going on right now that I assumed that I would be too busy to even think about it and that these thoughts would just leave me.

Well, they haven’t and it’s just getting worse and worse as the day approaches. To make matters worse I just found out that an acquaintance of mine is having her baby shower this very same weekend.  I hate that this bothers me so much. It’s no her fault at all that she chose this date, how could she even know that we thought of the same date?!

It saddens me that it bothers me so much but I can’t help but feel like someone just jabbed me with a sharp knife. I hate this feeling, I just do.

I was just invited to a weeding that very same day and at first I thought “great, something to keep my mind occupied” then I realized that all they’re going to be talking about will be making a baby and starting a family. Not to mention that I bet there will be tons of ladies there that will be pregnant.

AHHHHHH this is just great. Just freaking great.

I need to pull myself together and try to not think about this. How do I do that? I have no clue where to begin. How do I make my mind stop working? How can I forget?

And to make things worse today I found out that one of my great IF friends who also lost her baby around the same time that I did, tried again and she got pregnant, but it’s an ectopic pregnancy. That is just so not fair. Why do we have to suffer so much and others don’t? Why ? Why? Why?
Hang in there sweetie, I’ve been praying and thinking of you. Hang in there.

Vacation Packing List October 27, 2009

I know that some of you must be laughing so hard right now. I know, I know.

But seriously, I am a list kind of person. Not because I would forget anything, but because I like to be organized. I want to make sure that I don’t forget something and neither does my husband.

I looked around the internet and I found this list. Don’t get me wrong, some of the items on this list are very questionable. I’m not sure why some people would need to pack such things but otherwise it’s a very useful list.

I made some notes on this list. you’ll see some red and purple  writing and those are my notes. Although some of you might think that I”m a little OCD I think this will help a lot of people too.

Here it is:

VACATION PACKING LIST:

OUR VACATION PACKING LIST ITEMS

D/N = Don’t Need.

Media

• Cellphone and charger (compare prices)
• Digital camera (compare prices), batteries, memory cards, manual
• iPod (compare prices) /MP3 player and headphones, batteries, mini-speakers
• Camera case
• Foreign-language dictionary or phrase book
• Journal/notebook and pen
• Maps and directions
• Mini-DVD player or DVD-capable laptop and DVDs
• Reading material
• Travel guide(s)
• Underwater camera (compare prices)- D/N

Medical

• Antibiotic cream
• Anti-diarrheal medication
• Band-Aids
• Birth control
• Bug repellent
• Cortisone 1% anti-itch cream
• Extra pair of eyeglasses
• For cruisers: Sea-sickness bands or pills  – I’ll need this no matter what
• Lubricant (compare prices) - ???
• Pain reliever
• Prescription medicines

Money & Documents

• Addresses for sending postcards/e-mail
• Auto insurance card – Not sure why you would need this overseas, but ok.
• Business cards
• Cash
• Copy of marriage license – Again, not sure why, but ok.
• Copy of medical history, if necessary – way too many pages for me to take with me.
• Copy of vacation packing list
• Driver’s license/international driver’s license
• Emergency numbers and embassy address – Good to know.
• Frequent flyer/frequent guest cards – D/N
• Paper airline tickets or e-ticket confirmation
• Passports and visas, if necessary
• Photo ID
• Pre-paid phone card – Great idea
• Travelers checks and receipt (keep separate)
• Vaccination certificates, if required – D/N
• Vouchers/coupons/tickets
• Your itinerary

Miscellaneous/Extras

• Anti-bacterial wipes
• Bubble bath
• Binoculars – ???
• Currency converter
• Duct tape – Why, why, why???
• Keys
• Krazy Glue – Why? What are you going to do with that?
• Lint roller
• Luggage locks approved by TSA (compare prices)
• Massage oil  - ???
• Plastic Zip-Loc bags
• Playing cards  - ???
• Q-Tips
• Sports gear (tennis racquets, golf clubs, swim goggles) – D/N
• Sunscreen/SPF – Do you still need this if it’s going to be cold? I think not.
• Sunglasses
• Travel alarm clock
• Travel candles – Why would you need candles?
• Umbrella
• Zip ties (vendor’s site) –  Why, why, why???

HIS VACATION PACKING LIST ITEMS

Menswear

• Athletic shoes (vendor’s site)
• Belts
• Boxers / Briefs
• Casual shirts
• Dress shoes
• Hat
• Oxford shirts
• Pants
• Pajamas / Robe
• Sandals
• Shirts
• Shorts
• Sports jacket
• Swim wear
• Tie
• T-shirts / Undershirts
• Workout clothes

Men’s Toiletries

• Comb / Brush
• Deodorant
• Floss
• Lip balm
• Rogaine (compare prices) , if necessary – hahahaha
• Shaving kit / Shaving Cream
• Shampoo / Conditioner / Styling Products
• Toothbrush/toothpaste/mouthwash

HER VACATION PACKING LIST ITEMS

Women’s Clothing and Accessories

• Bathing suit
• Bras
• Panties and/or thongs
• Lingerie
• Costume jewelry — earrings, necklace, bracelets
• Fake diamond engagement ring (leave the real one in a safety-deposit box till you return)
• Dress
• Heels
• Pareo/sarong/big scarf
• Robe
• Sandals
• Shorts/Capris
• Skirt
• Slacks
• Slip/Bodyslimmer/Spanx (compare prices)
• Sneakers (vendor’s site) or walking shoes
• Socks
• Stylish shirt
• Sweater
• Straw/wide-brimmed hat
• Tank/halter/sleeveless tops
• Workout clothes- This is supposed to be a vacation! No working out!!!

Sundries

• [Acne control product[/link] – D/N
• Baby powder – ???
• Blow dryer/straightening iron
• Comb/Brush
• Cosmetic case/makeup bag
• Deodorant
• Depilatory
• [Eyeliner
• Eye Shadow
• Lipsticks
• Blush
• Mascara
• Makeup remover
• Facial cleanser
• Moisturizer/SPF
• Tampons
• Toothbrush/toothpaste/mouthwash
• Dental floss
• Shampoo/conditioner/styling products
• Scrunchies
• Tweezers

 

Now, it’s not that I aggree with all of these but I sure would like to have them as an option. Some of these things are a little crazy but nonetheless this list is very interesting.