All packed up and ready to go! November 12, 2009

This is it; today we’re heading to LA after work. Yesterday was a little crazy. After work, we went to get our haircuts and after that we headed home to make sure that we’ve packed everything that we needed.

Of course we had a list of things that we already packed but you know how it is. The list kind of got tossed to the side and we just started to put things inside of the bags. We realized that we could just take two suite cases (one each) but if we did that then we wouldn’t be able to bring anything back from Poland. So we decided to pack a small bag to take with us so we can bring things back if we need to.

I think that we packed enough warm clothing (I hope so) and we should be ok.

I’m taking a carry-on bag with me where I’ll take some long johns and socks so we can put that one before landing.

Our poor car looks so full, it’s ridiculous. I truly amaze my own self on how I’m able to fit so many things inside of my car.

Right now we have a big dog crate (where Hershey travels in), one BIG suite case (that’s mine), one medium/large suite case for Tom and one smallish one for the both of us. Then I have a bag with my dog’s things, a container with their food, our carry one bags and I still have to fit my medication bag plus the dog’s bowls. OMG!!! I have a Ford Escape not a van or bus……..how in the world…..

Anyway, so far it fits, we’ll see if we’ll make it to LA. I surely hope so since it’s suppose to rain today and I really don’t want to get stuck on the road with a car full of stuff and three dogs inside of.

I looked online for the weather forecast for Poland and I found a 15 day forecast. If nothing changes then I guess I’ll be getting some snow after all.

Here’s the forecast.

Tuesday, Nov 17

A morning shower in spots; otherwise, low clouds. Winds from the WSW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 49 °F

Tuesday Night, Nov 17

Cloudy with a passing shower late.

Winds from the SSW at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 33 °F     Low: 39 °F

Wednesday, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the SW at 13 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    High: 45 °F

Wednesday Night, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the WNW at 17 mph.

Realfeel®: 25 °F    Low: 36 °F

Thursday, Nov 19

Cloudy. Winds from the NW at 11 mph.

Realfeel®: 44 °F    High: 51 °F

Thursday Night, Nov 19

Occasional rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    Low: 43 °F

Friday, Nov 20

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 37 °F    High: 44 °F

Friday Night, Nov 20

Rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 26 °F    Low: 33 °F

Saturday, Nov 21

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 8 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    High: 40 °F

Saturday Night, Nov 21

Snow and rain at times. Winds from the N    at 7 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    Low: 37°F

Sunday, Nov 22

Low clouds. Winds from the N at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 45 °F

Sunday Night, Nov 22

Plenty of clouds. Winds from the N at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 39 °F    Low: 41 °F

Monday, Nov 23

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 4 mph.

Realfeel®: 50 °F    High: 50 °F

Monday Night, Nov 23

Low clouds. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 44 °F    Low: 42 °F

Tuesday, Nov 24

Low clouds. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 45 °F    High: 44 °F

Tuesday Night, Nov 24

Low clouds. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 40 °F    Low: 38 °F

Wednesday, Nov 25

Intervals of clouds and sunshine. Winds will be light and variable

Realfeel®: 45 °F    High: 43 °F

Wednesday Night, Nov 25

Partly cloudy. Winds from the S at 4 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    Low: 36 °F

Thursday, Nov 26

Considerable cloudiness. Winds from the WSW at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 43 °F

Thursday Night, Nov 26

Rain and freezing rain. Winds from the WSW at 12 mph.

Realfeel®: 19 °F    Low 31°F

 

Tuesday, Nov 17

A morning shower in spots; otherwise, low clouds. Winds from the WSW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 42 °F    High: 49 °F

Tuesday Night, Nov 17

Cloudy with a passing shower late.

Winds from the SSW at 6 mph.

Realfeel®: 33 °F     Low: 39 °F

Wednesday, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the SW at 13 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    High: 45 °F

Wednesday Night, Nov 18

Rain. Winds from the WNW at 17 mph.

Realfeel®: 25 °F    Low: 36 °F

Thursday, Nov 19

Cloudy. Winds from the NW at 11 mph.

Realfeel®: 44 °F    High: 51 °F

Thursday Night, Nov 19

Occasional rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 36 °F    Low: 43 °F

Friday, Nov 20

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 37 °F    High: 44 °F

Friday Night, Nov 20

Rain. Winds from the NNW at 10 mph.

Realfeel®: 26 °F    Low: 33 °F

Saturday, Nov 21

Low clouds. Winds from the NNW at 8 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    High: 40 °F

Saturday Night, Nov 21

Snow and rain at times. Winds from the N    at 7 mph.

Realfeel®: 34 °F    Low: 37°F

A letter to my angel baby. November 6, 2009

November 6, 2009

Hi my angel baby,

This is not easy for me but I’m going to try my best to write you this letter.

The day that we found out that you were inside of me was the happiest moment of our lives. Mommy and daddy were so happy that we couldn’t contain our tears.
Everyday that I carried you inside of me was the happiest days of our lives. I was so very happy, it’s a feeling that I can’t even begin to express.

The first time that we saw you in that monitor were for sure the happiest we’ve ever been. There you were, snuggled inside of me. You heart was beating away; we could see the flickering in the monitor. It was absolutely beautiful.

The love that we felt and feel for you is something that we’ll never forget and we’ll be forever in our hearts.

So many people were happy for us to have you in our lives. Your grandparents were so happy. Grandma cried so hard when she found out you were coming. Your great-grandmas were also so very happy they were even making plans to come see you at your arrival.

I need you to know that we love you more than words can say.  You were surrounded by so much love, I made sure to talk to you everyday.  Not a single day went by without me letting you know how much I loved you.

The second time we got to see you was a very special moment too. It was the very first time we got to listen to your heart beating. Daddy was so very excited about it. He couldn’t contain himself, he told everyone how amazing your little heart sounded like.  We didn’t know it yet but that was the last time we would watch your little heart beating.

The day that God took you in his arms was a very sad day for us. Mommy & daddy wanted you for ourselves so badly that it was (and still is) very hard to accept that you were meant to be somewhere else, that you were meant to be in His arms and not ours.

I wish I had the chance to hold you in my arms, look into your eyes and be able to tell you how much I love you.  I wish I could watch you grow and explore this crazy world of ours. I wish you were here with me.

I believe that you are in heaven and that you’re a beautiful angel with blond curls and big bright eyes. I hope that you’re at a much better place where all you can feel is happiness. One day we’ll be together again and I’ll be able to look into your eyes and finally let you know how much you were loved.

Tomorrow was suppose to be your very first “party”, we were going to throw a party to celebrate you.  I won’t be an easy day for me as I’ll be missing you more than ever but know that I’ll be thinking of you every since second of the day. I’ll be celebrating you. I’ll be loving you and cherishing you .

Thank you for making us the happiest parents even if it was for a short while.

PS: Love you ‘till the end.

The Polish weather awaits me. November 5, 2009

Historical Summary for November 14 – November 27

Temperature: The Average High Temperature is 40 F with a historical range of 14 F to 60 F The Average Low Temperature is 31 F with a historical range of 5 F to 50 F There is a 0% chance of a Hot Day (temperature over 90°F / 32°C). (0 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 0 There is a 1% chance of a Warm Day (temperature over 60°F / 16°C). (1 day out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 1 There is a 47% chance of a Freezing Day (temperature below 32°F / 0°C). (85 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 13

Cloud Cover: Average Cloud Cover is partly cloudy There is a 65% chance of a Cloudy Day. (117 days out of 181 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 13

Wind: The Average Wind is 8 mph with a historical range of 0 mph to 28 mph There is a 27% chance of a Windy Day (average wind over 10 mph / 15km/h). (50 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 5

Humidity:

The Average High Dew Point is 37 F with a historical range of 10 F to 54 F

The Average Low Dew Point is 30 F with a historical range of 3 F to 48 F

There is a 0% chance of a Humid Day (dew point over 65°F / 18°C). (0 days out of 182 in historical record) Most consecutive days found in historic record: 0 Daily Observations 2008 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2008/11/14 44 40 35 39 39 36 100 98 81 30.33 30.30 30.15 6 2 0 13 5 - 0.00 Fog 2008/11/15 50 47 44 46 37 37 100 86 76 30.15 30.13 30.06 6 4 2 17 11 28 0.00 Rain 2008/11/16 51 46 41 46 45 37 93 82 62 30.06 30.05 29.86 6 6 4 25 15 43 0.00 Rain 2008/11/17 41 36 30 39 37 27 93 85 70 30.24 30.06 29.89 6 6 6 22 19 32 0.00 Rain 2008/11/18 39 30 21 32 26 21 100 85 65 30.24 29.96 29.68 6 6 4 18 2 30 0.00 Snow 2008/11/19 44 38 33 43 31 28 100 91 75 29.71 29.64 29.44 6 5 1 25 17 37 0.00 Rain , Snow 2008/11/20 46 44 41 45 43 36 93 92 76 29.44 29.40 29.24 6 6 4 28 22 40 0.00 Rain 2008/11/21 41 36 32 36 36 28 100 80 65 29.30 29.30 29.15 6 6 2 21 15 32 0.00 Rain , Snow 2008/11/22 30 29 28 30 30 23 100 89 75 29.21 29.18 29.12 6 5 1 14 8 23 0.00 Snow 2008/11/23 33 30 28 30 27 25 100 94 80 29.30 29.10 29.06 6 5 1 21 9 32 0.00 Snow 2008/11/24 33 30 28 30 26 23 100 80 65 29.47 29.29 29.27 6 6 2 15 11 - 0.00 Snow 2008/11/25 35 32 28 32 30 27 100 89 70 29.83 29.61 29.47 6 5 2 13 4 - 0.00 Snow 2008/11/26 35 34 32 36 30 28 100 93 87 30.04 29.94 29.83 6 5 2 14 10 - 0.00 Rain , Snow 2008/11/27 42 38 35 41 36 36 100 96 93 30.06 29.95 29.92 5 3 2 16 14 26 0.00 Rain 2007 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2007/11/14 35 32 30 34 33 30 100 99 87 29.86 29.63 29.50 6 5 2 7 5 - 0.00 Snow 2007/11/15 33 30 26 32 31 25 100 97 81 30.12 29.95 29.86 6 5 3 15 4 - 0.00 Snow 2007/11/16 30 26 23 30 25 23 100 94 86 30.24 30.12 30.12 6 4 1 13 9 - 0.00 2007/11/17 35 32 30 34 28 28 100 92 87 30.24 30.21 30.18 6 4 2 9 9 - 0.00 2007/11/18 33 30 28 32 32 28 100 97 93 30.24 30.24 30.15 6 3 1 16 4 - 0.00 2007/11/19 32 30 28 30 30 28 100 96 87 30.24 30.15 30.15 6 5 2 16 13 - 0.00 2007/11/20 32 29 26 32 30 27 100 100 100 30.24 30.18 30.18 2 1 0 7 7 - 0.00 Fog 2007/11/21 39 32 26 37 27 27 100 100 87 30.15 30.14 29.98 6 2 0 8 4 - 0.00 Fog 2007/11/22 41 32 24 36 28 25 100 94 76 29.98 29.97 29.92 5 3 2 7 5 - 0.00 2007/11/23 50 41 32 43 32 32 100 91 76 29.95 29.89 29.86 6 4 2 9 5 - 0.00 Fog 2007/11/24 42 40 37 41 38 30 100 92 70 30.15 29.99 29.95 6 4 1 14 7 - 0.00 Rain 2007/11/25 41 37 33 36 29 28 93 82 70 30.09 29.89 29.68 6 6 4 16 6 - 0.00 Rain 2007/11/26 39 36 32 36 36 30 100 89 81 29.68 29.64 29.53 6 6 1 18 10 31 0.00 Rain , Snow 2007/11/27 35 32 30 34 30 28 100 89 87 30.01 29.79 29.68 6 5 1 20 16 29 0.00 Rain , Snow 2006 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2006/11/14 50 44 37 45 41 36 100 92 82 29.86 29.62 29.42 7 6 3 20 13 29 0.00 Rain 2006/11/15 55 50 46 52 43 43 94 88 82 29.98 29.86 29.86 7 6 3 14 8 - 0.00 Rain 2006/11/16 59 48 37 48 43 37 100 87 67 29.98 29.98 29.92 7 6 3 10 7 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/17 55 46 37 48 42 37 100 92 72 30.04 29.95 29.95 7 3 0 6 4 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/18 51 44 37 48 41 37 100 96 82 30.12 30.05 30.04 5 2 0 10 4 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/19 48 46 44 46 46 45 100 98 93 30.24 30.15 30.06 4 1 0 9 5 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/20 50 47 44 48 45 45 100 100 93 30.06 30.04 29.98 7 2 0 12 10 - 0.00 Fog , Rain 2006/11/21 50 47 44 46 45 43 100 99 82 29.98 29.80 29.59 4 2 0 13 2 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/22 50 46 42 45 43 41 100 93 82 29.62 29.59 29.56 7 4 2 10 9 - 0.00 Rain 2006/11/23 46 44 42 45 45 43 100 98 87 29.71 29.62 29.62 7 4 2 14 6 - 0.00 Rain 2006/11/24 51 44 37 46 43 37 100 88 76 29.98 29.78 29.71 7 4 2 14 12 - 0.00 Fog , Rain 2006/11/25 50 44 37 43 39 37 100 90 76 30.04 29.98 29.95 5 3 1 12 4 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/26 55 46 37 48 42 37 100 90 77 30.24 30.07 30.04 7 4 2 7 5 - 0.00 Fog 2006/11/27 46 40 35 46 41 36 100 97 93 30.33 30.24 30.24 4 1 0 6 5 - 0.00 Fog 2005 Temp. (°F) Dew Point (°F) Humidity (%) Sea Level Pressure (in) Visibility (mi) Wind (mph) Gust Speed (mph) Precip (in) Events November high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg low high avg high sum 2005/11/14 46 40 33 37 37 34 100 83 71 30.30 30.29 30.09 7 5 4 13 5 - 0.00 2005/11/15 50 44 37 37 34 34 87 75 58 30.06 29.73 29.50 7 6 4 17 8 - 0.00 2005/11/16 42 38 35 39 35 34 100 92 76 29.50 29.50 29.33 7 5 2 13 11 - 0.00 Rain 2005/11/17 39 36 33 37 37 28 100 91 70 29.71 29.48 29.33 7 6 4 16 5 26 0.00 Rain , Snow 2005/11/18 35 34 32 32 32 28 93 89 75 30.06 29.84 29.71 7 6 2 16 13 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/19 33 30 28 30 28 27 100 92 80 30.21 30.06 30.06 7 5 1 10 5 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/20 33 30 28 30 27 27 93 92 81 30.21 30.18 30.12 7 6 3 12 5 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/21 33 30 26 30 29 23 100 86 69 30.27 30.12 30.12 7 6 1 14 4 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/22 33 30 26 32 27 27 100 96 87 30.54 30.32 30.24 7 5 2 13 12 - 0.00 Rain , Snow 2005/11/23 33 32 32 34 32 32 100 100 93 30.54 30.54 30.42 2 2 1 5 2 - 0.00 Fog , Rain , Snow 2005/11/24 32 28 23 32 30 19 100 93 86 30.42 30.06 29.77 7 3 1 13 6 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/25 32 30 26 30 27 25 100 95 86 29.77 29.55 29.42 4 3 1 13 9 - 0.00 Snow 2005/11/26 33 28 24 34 26 23 100 92 86 29.62 29.55 29.53 4 3 1 9 6 - 0.00 Rain , Snow 2005/11/27 42 38 33 39 34 34 100 97 81 29.56 29.50 29.30 7 5 0 12 8 - 0.00 Rain

2008	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2008	44	40	35	39	39	36	100	98	81	30.33	30.3	30.15	6	2	0	13	5	-	0	Fog
11/15/2008	50	47	44	46	37	37	100	86	76	30.15	30.13	30.06	6	4	2	17	11	28	0	Rain
11/16/2008	51	46	41	46	45	37	93	82	62	30.06	30.05	29.86	6	6	4	25	15	43	0	Rain
11/17/2008	41	36	30	39	37	27	93	85	70	30.24	30.06	29.89	6	6	6	22	19	32	0	Rain
11/18/2008	39	30	21	32	26	21	100	85	65	30.24	29.96	29.68	6	6	4	18	2	30	0	Snow
11/19/2008	44	38	33	43	31	28	100	91	75	29.71	29.64	29.44	6	5	1	25	17	37	0	Rain , Snow
11/20/2008	46	44	41	45	43	36	93	92	76	29.44	29.4	29.24	6	6	4	28	22	40	0	Rain
11/21/2008	41	36	32	36	36	28	100	80	65	29.3	29.3	29.15	6	6	2	21	15	32	0	Rain , Snow
11/22/2008	30	29	28	30	30	23	100	89	75	29.21	29.18	29.12	6	5	1	14	8	23	0	Snow
11/23/2008	33	30	28	30	27	25	100	94	80	29.3	29.1	29.06	6	5	1	21	9	32	0	Snow
11/24/2008	33	30	28	30	26	23	100	80	65	29.47	29.29	29.27	6	6	2	15	11	-	0	Snow
11/25/2008	35	32	28	32	30	27	100	89	70	29.83	29.61	29.47	6	5	2	13	4	-	0	Snow
11/26/2008	35	34	32	36	30	28	100	93	87	30.04	29.94	29.83	6	5	2	14	10	-	0	Rain , Snow
11/27/2008	42	38	35	41	36	36	100	96	93	30.06	29.95	29.92	5	3	2	16	14	26	0	Rain
2007	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2007	35	32	30	34	33	30	100	99	87	29.86	29.63	29.5	6	5	2	7	5	-	0	Snow
11/15/2007	33	30	26	32	31	25	100	97	81	30.12	29.95	29.86	6	5	3	15	4	-	0	Snow
11/16/2007	30	26	23	30	25	23	100	94	86	30.24	30.12	30.12	6	4	1	13	9	-	0
11/17/2007	35	32	30	34	28	28	100	92	87	30.24	30.21	30.18	6	4	2	9	9	-	0
11/18/2007	33	30	28	32	32	28	100	97	93	30.24	30.24	30.15	6	3	1	16	4	-	0
11/19/2007	32	30	28	30	30	28	100	96	87	30.24	30.15	30.15	6	5	2	16	13	-	0
11/20/2007	32	29	26	32	30	27	100	100	100	30.24	30.18	30.18	2	1	0	7	7	-	0	Fog
11/21/2007	39	32	26	37	27	27	100	100	87	30.15	30.14	29.98	6	2	0	8	4	-	0	Fog
11/22/2007	41	32	24	36	28	25	100	94	76	29.98	29.97	29.92	5	3	2	7	5	-	0
11/23/2007	50	41	32	43	32	32	100	91	76	29.95	29.89	29.86	6	4	2	9	5	-	0	Fog
11/24/2007	42	40	37	41	38	30	100	92	70	30.15	29.99	29.95	6	4	1	14	7	-	0	Rain
11/25/2007	41	37	33	36	29	28	93	82	70	30.09	29.89	29.68	6	6	4	16	6	-	0	Rain
11/26/2007	39	36	32	36	36	30	100	89	81	29.68	29.64	29.53	6	6	1	18	10	31	0	Rain , Snow
11/27/2007	35	32	30	34	30	28	100	89	87	30.01	29.79	29.68	6	5	1	20	16	29	0	Rain , Snow
2006	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2006	50	44	37	45	41	36	100	92	82	29.86	29.62	29.42	7	6	3	20	13	29	0	Rain
11/15/2006	55	50	46	52	43	43	94	88	82	29.98	29.86	29.86	7	6	3	14	8	-	0	Rain
11/16/2006	59	48	37	48	43	37	100	87	67	29.98	29.98	29.92	7	6	3	10	7	-	0	Fog
11/17/2006	55	46	37	48	42	37	100	92	72	30.04	29.95	29.95	7	3	0	6	4	-	0	Fog
11/18/2006	51	44	37	48	41	37	100	96	82	30.12	30.05	30.04	5	2	0	10	4	-	0	Fog
11/19/2006	48	46	44	46	46	45	100	98	93	30.24	30.15	30.06	4	1	0	9	5	-	0	Fog
11/20/2006	50	47	44	48	45	45	100	100	93	30.06	30.04	29.98	7	2	0	12	10	-	0	Fog , Rain
11/21/2006	50	47	44	46	45	43	100	99	82	29.98	29.8	29.59	4	2	0	13	2	-	0	Fog
11/22/2006	50	46	42	45	43	41	100	93	82	29.62	29.59	29.56	7	4	2	10	9	-	0	Rain
11/23/2006	46	44	42	45	45	43	100	98	87	29.71	29.62	29.62	7	4	2	14	6	-	0	Rain
11/24/2006	51	44	37	46	43	37	100	88	76	29.98	29.78	29.71	7	4	2	14	12	-	0	Fog , Rain
11/25/2006	50	44	37	43	39	37	100	90	76	30.04	29.98	29.95	5	3	1	12	4	-	0	Fog
11/26/2006	55	46	37	48	42	37	100	90	77	30.24	30.07	30.04	7	4	2	7	5	-	0	Fog
11/27/2006	46	40	35	46	41	36	100	97	93	30.33	30.24	30.24	4	1	0	6	5	-	0	Fog
2005	Temp. (°F)			Dew Point (°F)			Humidity (%)			Sea Level Pressure (in)			Visibility (mi)			Wind (mph)		Gust Speed (mph)	Precip (in)	Events
November	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	low	high	avg	high	sum
11/14/2005	46	40	33	37	37	34	100	83	71	30.3	30.29	30.09	7	5	4	13	5	-	0
11/15/2005	50	44	37	37	34	34	87	75	58	30.06	29.73	29.5	7	6	4	17	8	-	0
11/16/2005	42	38	35	39	35	34	100	92	76	29.5	29.5	29.33	7	5	2	13	11	-	0	Rain
11/17/2005	39	36	33	37	37	28	100	91	70	29.71	29.48	29.33	7	6	4	16	5	26	0	Rain , Snow
11/18/2005	35	34	32	32	32	28	93	89	75	30.06	29.84	29.71	7	6	2	16	13	-	0	Snow
11/19/2005	33	30	28	30	28	27	100	92	80	30.21	30.06	30.06	7	5	1	10	5	-	0	Snow
11/20/2005	33	30	28	30	27	27	93	92	81	30.21	30.18	30.12	7	6	3	12	5	-	0	Snow
11/21/2005	33	30	26	30	29	23	100	86	69	30.27	30.12	30.12	7	6	1	14	4	-	0	Snow
11/22/2005	33	30	26	32	27	27	100	96	87	30.54	30.32	30.24	7	5	2	13	12	-	0	Rain , Snow
11/23/2005	33	32	32	34	32	32	100	100	93	30.54	30.54	30.42	2	2	1	5	2	-	0	Fog , Rain , Snow
11/24/2005	32	28	23	32	30	19	100	93	86	30.42	30.06	29.77	7	3	1	13	6	-	0	Snow
11/25/2005	32	30	26	30	27	25	100	95	86	29.77	29.55	29.42	4	3	1	13	9	-	0	Snow
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A dreadful weekend is in sight. November 3, 2009

I knew this day would come and I’m dreading it.  This upcoming Saturday was supposed to be our baby shower. I remember thinking about it back when we lost the baby and how scared I was that I would be super sad when the day arrived.

Last month someone reminded me of this day but I was able to brush it off and not think about it too much.  I thought that I was going to be able to do the same if this thought were to enter my head again.

WRONG!!! For the past couple of days I’ve been thinking about our baby a lot and I tried not to give too much attention to it. After all, there’s so much going on right now that I assumed that I would be too busy to even think about it and that these thoughts would just leave me.

Well, they haven’t and it’s just getting worse and worse as the day approaches. To make matters worse I just found out that an acquaintance of mine is having her baby shower this very same weekend.  I hate that this bothers me so much. It’s no her fault at all that she chose this date, how could she even know that we thought of the same date?!

It saddens me that it bothers me so much but I can’t help but feel like someone just jabbed me with a sharp knife. I hate this feeling, I just do.

I was just invited to a weeding that very same day and at first I thought “great, something to keep my mind occupied” then I realized that all they’re going to be talking about will be making a baby and starting a family. Not to mention that I bet there will be tons of ladies there that will be pregnant.

AHHHHHH this is just great. Just freaking great.

I need to pull myself together and try to not think about this. How do I do that? I have no clue where to begin. How do I make my mind stop working? How can I forget?

And to make things worse today I found out that one of my great IF friends who also lost her baby around the same time that I did, tried again and she got pregnant, but it’s an ectopic pregnancy. That is just so not fair. Why do we have to suffer so much and others don’t? Why ? Why? Why?
Hang in there sweetie, I’ve been praying and thinking of you. Hang in there.

Vacation Packing List October 27, 2009

I know that some of you must be laughing so hard right now. I know, I know.

But seriously, I am a list kind of person. Not because I would forget anything, but because I like to be organized. I want to make sure that I don’t forget something and neither does my husband.

I looked around the internet and I found this list. Don’t get me wrong, some of the items on this list are very questionable. I’m not sure why some people would need to pack such things but otherwise it’s a very useful list.

I made some notes on this list. you’ll see some red and purple  writing and those are my notes. Although some of you might think that I”m a little OCD I think this will help a lot of people too.

Here it is:

VACATION PACKING LIST:

OUR VACATION PACKING LIST ITEMS

D/N = Don’t Need.

Media

• Cellphone and charger (compare prices)
• Digital camera (compare prices), batteries, memory cards, manual
• iPod (compare prices) /MP3 player and headphones, batteries, mini-speakers
• Camera case
• Foreign-language dictionary or phrase book
• Journal/notebook and pen
• Maps and directions
• Mini-DVD player or DVD-capable laptop and DVDs
• Reading material
• Travel guide(s)
• Underwater camera (compare prices)- D/N

Medical

• Antibiotic cream
• Anti-diarrheal medication
• Band-Aids
• Birth control
• Bug repellent
• Cortisone 1% anti-itch cream
• Extra pair of eyeglasses
• For cruisers: Sea-sickness bands or pills  – I’ll need this no matter what
• Lubricant (compare prices) - ???
• Pain reliever
• Prescription medicines

Money & Documents

• Addresses for sending postcards/e-mail
• Auto insurance card – Not sure why you would need this overseas, but ok.
• Business cards
• Cash
• Copy of marriage license – Again, not sure why, but ok.
• Copy of medical history, if necessary – way too many pages for me to take with me.
• Copy of vacation packing list
• Driver’s license/international driver’s license
• Emergency numbers and embassy address – Good to know.
• Frequent flyer/frequent guest cards – D/N
• Paper airline tickets or e-ticket confirmation
• Passports and visas, if necessary
• Photo ID
• Pre-paid phone card – Great idea
• Travelers checks and receipt (keep separate)
• Vaccination certificates, if required – D/N
• Vouchers/coupons/tickets
• Your itinerary

Miscellaneous/Extras

• Anti-bacterial wipes
• Bubble bath
• Binoculars – ???
• Currency converter
• Duct tape – Why, why, why???
• Keys
• Krazy Glue – Why? What are you going to do with that?
• Lint roller
• Luggage locks approved by TSA (compare prices)
• Massage oil  - ???
• Plastic Zip-Loc bags
• Playing cards  - ???
• Q-Tips
• Sports gear (tennis racquets, golf clubs, swim goggles) – D/N
• Sunscreen/SPF – Do you still need this if it’s going to be cold? I think not.
• Sunglasses
• Travel alarm clock
• Travel candles – Why would you need candles?
• Umbrella
• Zip ties (vendor’s site) –  Why, why, why???

HIS VACATION PACKING LIST ITEMS

Menswear

• Athletic shoes (vendor’s site)
• Belts
• Boxers / Briefs
• Casual shirts
• Dress shoes
• Hat
• Oxford shirts
• Pants
• Pajamas / Robe
• Sandals
• Shirts
• Shorts
• Sports jacket
• Swim wear
• Tie
• T-shirts / Undershirts
• Workout clothes

Men’s Toiletries

• Comb / Brush
• Deodorant
• Floss
• Lip balm
• Rogaine (compare prices) , if necessary – hahahaha
• Shaving kit / Shaving Cream
• Shampoo / Conditioner / Styling Products
• Toothbrush/toothpaste/mouthwash

HER VACATION PACKING LIST ITEMS

Women’s Clothing and Accessories

• Bathing suit
• Bras
• Panties and/or thongs
• Lingerie
• Costume jewelry — earrings, necklace, bracelets
• Fake diamond engagement ring (leave the real one in a safety-deposit box till you return)
• Dress
• Heels
• Pareo/sarong/big scarf
• Robe
• Sandals
• Shorts/Capris
• Skirt
• Slacks
• Slip/Bodyslimmer/Spanx (compare prices)
• Sneakers (vendor’s site) or walking shoes
• Socks
• Stylish shirt
• Sweater
• Straw/wide-brimmed hat
• Tank/halter/sleeveless tops
• Workout clothes- This is supposed to be a vacation! No working out!!!

Sundries

• [Acne control product[/link] – D/N
• Baby powder – ???
• Blow dryer/straightening iron
• Comb/Brush
• Cosmetic case/makeup bag
• Deodorant
• Depilatory
• [Eyeliner
• Eye Shadow
• Lipsticks
• Blush
• Mascara
• Makeup remover
• Facial cleanser
• Moisturizer/SPF
• Tampons
• Toothbrush/toothpaste/mouthwash
• Dental floss
• Shampoo/conditioner/styling products
• Scrunchies
• Tweezers

 

Now, it’s not that I aggree with all of these but I sure would like to have them as an option. Some of these things are a little crazy but nonetheless this list is very interesting.

 

Almost there! October 21, 2009

Almost there!!!

Our vacation is coming up pretty soon and I’m so excited about it.

Let’s start with first things first. Some of you might already know this but some don’t. This treatment did not work out for us. It’s pretty upsetting but we’re trying to stay focused on our vacation and not think about it too much.

I did go see my doctor and it appears that I have a polyp in my uterus and they want to proceed with surgery to remove it. I’m scheduled to have this procedure done on the 28^thof October. It’s nothing major but I do have to be under general anesthesia, so it’s a little bit of a big deal. Wish me luck.

Anyway, back to our vacation plans. The planning has been going on for a while on Tom’s side of the family. It’s all very exciting and interesting for me. I can’t wait to see everyone and everything that they have planned out for us.

By the sounds of it, there are already many plans made out for us. What we did, we talked about the places that we would like to see and the family is trying to plan who’s taking us where and what else we can do for fun. It already sounds like it’s going to be a lot of fun.

We’re only really spending one full weekend there and they made reservations for us to go to this beautiful park where the hotel is just beautiful, it looks like a castle. There will be a private, exclusive tour guide like ride that we’ll take. A lot of family members are going, it sounds like so much fun.

We have other plans as well, and we’re really looking forward to this trip. We truly need to get away and relax our minds a little bit. This whole Infertility thing is getting to us.

I truly hope that the entire family can track along with us so we can have a really good time.

I’ve been trying to ask my nieces what they would like me to bring them from the US and so far all they’ve asked for are for a couple of CDs and (believe or not) some marshmallows. Isn’t it just adorable that they’re asking for that?! I think it’s too cute.

I’m still trying to figure out what to bring them. It’s so hard to know since I’m not sure what they’re really into. I’ll figure something out. I hope.

I made some stickers for my suite case and I can’t wait to show it to you guys. Yes, you heard it right, I made them. I’m going to take some pictures to show off. Ohhh I also bought this beautiful passport cover. I love it; it’s just too darn adorable.

That’s it for now; I leave you with the promise of some pictures. I’ll post them soon.

Dealing with life and Ignoring it all at the same time! October 12, 2009

This is me and my little brother.

Life has played so many tricks on my already, I’m not even sure where to start with this.

I have to admit that after the loss of our little one, I felt completely lost. I was not able to look ahead and see anything clearly into our future. I’m not talking about being with my husband or anything like that; I’m referring to our goals and dreams.

I would be lying if I were to say that I am all better now and that I don’t get sad anymore, I sure do. But I think that I’ve been able to handle my emotions a little better and I can “take” more now than I did when this first happened.

Believe it or not, getting our tattoo and being able to start trying again has helped me a lot. Don’t get me wrong, I wish I didn’t have to do all of these medical procedures in order to get pregnant. I wish we could just do it the old fashion way, but with both of our medical conditions, it makes it impossible.

For some reason, after losing our little one we have been able to talk more openly about our treatment to other people. Those that didn’t care to ask before are now more interested into it, in a good way, not a mean or creepy way. And they seem way more supportive then before. It’s cute to have people/friends take care of me in their own little way. It makes me feel special and cared for.

It’s been one week since our treatment and the waiting game is killing me. It always does. I’m trying my best not to think about it, but it’s hard.

Another subject that I’ve been trying really hard to avoid is the fact that my little brother is going to Brasil and he’s going to try to stay there. This is a very hard subject for me. I’ve been trying so hard not to think about it. My little brother is everything to me. I cannot imagine not being able to get in the car and going to visit him. Just thinking about that brings tears to my eyes and that freaked out feeling to my chest.

Felipe is my little brother. I’ve spoiled and cared for him so much. I can’t see myself without having him around. We’ve been through a lot throughout the years and I love him to death.

If anything happens to him, I turn into this completely different, crazy, get out of the way person. Tom has never had the “pleasure” of seeing that side of me, but I had plenty of that when we were kids.

Felipe and I had an amazing childhood in Brasil and I think that’s the main reason he wants to go back and try his life there. There are so many wonderful memories that he can’t help but try to be as happy now as he was back then.

We’ve gotten much closer to each other over the years and I love that. He’s my confidante, my best friend, my little brother and I love him to death.

So, I’ve been trying really hard to think that he’s just going for a very long vacation but that he’ll come back to me and we’ll be living close to each other.

With that I’m not only not trying to think about this treatment, but I’m also trying not to think about my little brother living me behind and moving thousands of miles away.

He knows that if and when I get pregnant that he’s the Godfather and that he better be near me. You hear me, right Felipe?

I love you little brother and I’m going to miss you terribly. The holidays won’t be the same without you.
Have fun there but please, please, please be careful and take good care of yourself. Te amo.

Transforming from Negative to Positive. September 30, 2009

Many times I’ve heard from friends and family that I’m not a very positive person. I think about that at times and although I’m not trying to make excuses for myself, I have to say that it’s just the way that I was raised.

As a child I was always able to really see what was going on around me.  My favorite “game” with my little brother was asking him to close his eyes and describe what was around us when we walked in somewhere new.  The point of this is that I’ve always been able to really see what was going on. Regardless of it is was a good thing or a bad thing.

With that I then learned that I needed to protect myself and I learned how to prepare for the worse first. If something good were to happen then it’s just a bonus. Right?

I have a hard time seeing that this is a problem. Wouldn’t it be less of a disappointment to be ready for something bad and then have something good happen instead?

My sweet husband completely disagrees with me.  He is a very positive person (which I really appreciate) and he can’t seem to understand where I come from with this subject.

Regardless, I’m trying to change. I don’t want to be the pessimistic person that is always thinking about the worst all the time. The thing about doing that is the fact that we (pessimistic people) are never able to really enjoy things in life. We’re also always worried about things and that can never good in life.

I’m trying to change, I really am. I know better than to expect that things will change overnight, I know they won’t but it’s a work in progress.

There is no way that bad thing won’t happen to every one of us at least a handful of times in our lives. Even if they’re not big bad things, none the less, but things that wouldn’t make us happy are bound to happen.

I’ve heard many times from many people that you attract the energy that you emit and I believe that.

I’m trying to only emit good, positive, faithful energy. Think positive, think positive, think positive.

I have to remind myself constantly that although I’ve had my share of unlucky happenings, that I have been very blessed. I have a wonderful family that supports me all the way, I have the sweetest most caring husband that helps me get through the tough times and I have friend that care for me.

So life is not working out exactly how we dreamt is was going to be, but so many other good things happened in the meantime.  I met Tom and we got married, he got a job right off college, we bought a home, we have 3 wonderful dogs… little things that make all the difference in the world.

Moreover, I’m able to come here and let you all know how I’m feeling and the best part is that I know that I’ll get support and feedback from friends and family.

Lets then start seeing the silver lining that is out there on everything that happens in our lives, no matter what happens, there’s always a silver lining.

Let’s change our attitude towards life. Let’s not try to change our bad situation but instead accept it and try to transform and adapt our weakness into a positive energy.  I believe that once we’re able to do that we’ll be see things through different eyes and possibly even enjoy the situation that we’re faced with.

Let’s be POSITIVE!!!

I looked up some quotes and I thought I would share:

Happiness is an attitude.  We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong.  The amount of work is the same.  ~Francesca Reigler

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn’t learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn’t learn a little, at least we didn’t get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn’t die; so, let us all be thankful.  ~Buddha

Good fortune shies away from gloom.  Keep your spirits up.  Good things will come to you and you will come to good things.  ~Glorie Abelhas

Say you are well, or all is well with you,
And God shall hear your words and make them true.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Daily News!! September 29, 2009

YAY I got my US passport in the mail. I am so excited about it, I feel like a little kid that got a brand new toy. I’m already planning on getting a cover for it. Tom asked me “why do you need one?” I need to protect it, I said, I’m guessing that he still didn’t get it. We’ll see maybe I’ll find one that I like and I’ll just buy it.

This weekend we had a visitor. My mother in law is back in the US and she came to see us. It’s been a while since we’ve seen here and it was very nice having her over. For me it was a little bit bitter sweet. Let me explain. Before she left I remember her saying that when she got back I would be this further along and that I should already be feeling the baby kicking. As much as I didn’t want to remember that, I still did.

It was hard for me in that aspect. We told her that we’re trying again and she’s very happy for us.  The only thing is that she got mad at me for searching online and reading all these stories of pregnancy losses. She said that if she hears that I’m still doing that she’ll come over and take our computer away. Trust me, I don’t want to be more freaked out that I already am, but I can’t help but read posts and stories…..it’s just how I am. Although I know that I’m not as bad as I was before. I’ve been pretty good controlling myself and not reading “scary” stories.

For the first time ever she watched me inject myself with medication and that was interesting to do in front of her. When I did that in front of my mom and brother they kind of freaked out, with her not so much. All she said was “yep that needle is  bigger than I thought”

We had a good time though. We talked about our trip to Poland and tried to make plans where to visit and all. She gave us some pointers and we just enjoyed her company. She took us to my favorite restaurant PF Changs … I just love that place.

On another note, I might have a couple of opportunities to have a part time job for the month of October. I’m pretty excited about that. We need to make some extra money to pay for all these medical bills and travel expenses. Cross your finger for me.

This week is going to be a busy one. Today I have a doctor’s appointment to see what our next step is going to be. I’m pretty anxious about it. Not sure if I’m scared or if I’m just anxious……do u know what I mean?

Staying on that topic, I have people asking me “you’re trying already?” Well, yes we are. There are a lot of variables that we have to weigh so we can start trying and this is the time for us to try again.

I just want to make sure that one thing is very clear. Just because we’re trying again that doesn’t mean that we’re over our loss or that we’ve forgotten about it. It’s still very much an open wound and it hurts everyday. I don’t think that there’s a single day that goes by that I don’t think about our little one. We miss him/her very much.

With all the being said, we’re looking forward to trying again. I’m being very cautious and trying not to get my hopes too high. Tom is the positive one in this relationship so he’s already talking as if he knew that we’re getting pregnant for sure.

Anyway, we appreciate and all the support from friends and family.

I’m trying to keep my other blog updated so if you’re more interested you can always check us there.

Prengnat Woman gets pregnat during pregnancy?! September 24, 2009

I just read this on yahoo and I had to share it with everyone.

Watch this video to know more, but apparently this woman was pregnant and during a routine ultrasound found out that she got pregnant again while still being pregnant. WOW!! This is just insane.

http://gmy.news.yahoo.com/vid/15718290/