Day 3. TV Show

This one is easy to pick.

Although this TV show is no longer new I just can’t get enough of it. I can watch it everyday all day long if I have to and laugh my ass off everytime.

My favorite Show is Friends!  I just LOVE this show.

I have other current shows that I really like to watch now a days. They are:
1 . Grey’s Anatomy
2. Modern Family
3. Parenthood
4. White Colar
5. Burn Notice
6. Fringe

As you can see I can watch TV all the time. It all depends on what’s going on in our lives. LOL
I’m sure things will change once our little one is here.

Day 4 = Favorite Quotes

This one is tricky.  One of my favorite quotes came from somewhat of a “dark” book.
The quote is “Expect Nothing from everyone and you’ll never be disapointed”.

See I warned you, it’s kind of depressing.

Now another one that I like is:       “Do things because you want to not because you have to”

I can’t think of anything else right now. I’m sure there are many others but I just can’t think of it right now.

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Favorite Song:

This one is kind of hard for me. I love music of all sorts so it’s kind of hard to pick just one.

Let me then pick a couple of songs then.

The most recent one that I’ve come to really like is called “I never told you” by Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there’s no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I’m not around you

I guess then I should pick an older song that I really like then.

I absolutely Love Bon Jovi and all his songs. One of my favorites are “Thank You for Loving Me”

It’s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There’s no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn’t see for
Parting my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky’s a different blue

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you’d make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn’t see
For parting my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn’t see
You parted my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn’t fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me

Like I said there are many songs that I love. My favorite artists are a wide variety. From Mariah Carey to Bon Jovi to Tobie Keith to Guns &Roses. As you can see……..way too big of a range to cover.

As for Day #2 = Favorite Movie

Another really hard one to pick.

My 2 most recent ones that I’ve found myself watching over and over again and not getting tired of are:

Father Of the Bride 2

&

My Big Fat Greek Wedding

I know those are “older” movies but those are the ones that i know I can watch over and over again.

It drives Tom crazy but then again………..he’ll survive.

This is it for today I guess. I tried uploading the posters for the movies but for some reason my laptop won’t let me.

I’ll try later on our computer.

I was just reading this great blog   A Long And Winding Road and I saw this great idea that might help me kill time.

So I’m going to try and make this work.

It’s called a 30 day Blog Journal. Since I don’t have 30 days I’ll either only do the first 15 days or I’ll try to do 2 days at the time.
We’ll see!!!

Here’s a preview of what you will be learning about me over the next 30 days

30 day blog journal…

Ok so there’s a couple of things that I know I won’t be writing about.  I’m not big into books, specially lately and I would prefer not even trying to explain the things that I’ve been reading recently. So, I already crossed off 3 items that I won’t be doing.

Day 1-your favorite song
Day 2-your favorite movie
Day 3-your favorite television program
Day 4- your favorite book
Day 5-your favorite quote
Day 6- 20 of my favorite things
Day 7-a photo that makes you happy
Day 8-a photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 9-a photo you took
Day 10-a photo taken over 10 years ago of you
Day 11-a photo of you recently
Day 12-something you are OCD about
Day 13-a fictional book
Day 14-a non-fictional book
Day 15-your dream house
Day 16-a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17-an art piece (drawing,sculpture, painting, etc)
Day 18-my wedding/future wedding/past wedding
Day 19-a talent of yours
Day 20-a hobby of yours
Day 21-a recipe
Day 22-a website
Day 23-a youtube video
Day 24-where I live
Day 25-your day, in great detail
Day 26-your week, in great detail
Day 27-my worst habit
Day 28-whats in my handbag/purse
Day 29-hopes,dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30- a dream for the future

Ok so it’s been WAY TOO LONG since I’ve updated this blog.

The last time I updated here we already knew that we were pregnant but I didn’t want to say anything until we passed our 12 wks ultrasound.

It’s been way past that and I still didn’t update anything.

We found out on new years eve that we were pregnant. It was the most amazing yet scary thing ever. The unknown and the fear that takes over you is inexplicable.

Our new year’s eve was awesome. We spent it with our neighbors and not only she was pregnant but she also had a friend of hers that came over and she too was pregnant. There I was in the midst of pregnant ladies and that somehow made me feel more confident about my own pregnancy.

I did have my scary moments with this pregnancy. I had some bleeding in the beginning and the pure fact of fear also took over.

Our 12 weeks ultrasound was so very scary for me. I was shaking and at one point I was so nervous that my entire face turned red. The ultrasound itself was beautiful. The moment we saw the heart beating I was able to breath again (at least for a bit). Our sonographer was awesome and she guessed that we were having a boy. Of course it was just a guess since it was way too early to really know anything.

On March 26th I could no longer wait and decided to pay out of pocket for a 3D ultrasound. Our little one was not cooperating very well but at the last minute we saw it. A BOY!!!! Tom was beyond excited and happy about it. I think that the pure fact of knowing that he was making his dad proud was enough for him. This is the first boy for Tom’s side of the family and the first grandchild for mine so it’s a huge deal all the way around.

We’ve had 3 amazing baby showers and we are so very blessed to have so many friends and family members that care so much about us and our little peanut!

Here I am now. Almost 38 weeks and I still can not believe that this is really happening.

I’ve been on bedrest now for 4 weeks and although it hasn’t been easy I know that it’s all going to be worth it at the end.

I was first put on bedrest at 34wks due to contractions and the medication that they had me taking. It would make my heart beat so darn fast I could not do anything.

At 36wks I was able to stop taking this medication and when I thought I was on the clear my blood pressure decided to play tricks on me.

So here I am still on bedrest. Waiting impatiently for our little one to make his appearance.

Tom is still working and is busier than ever, I am very lucky to have my little brother staying here with us and helping take care of me.

I have an appointment coming up this monday and we hope to hear some good news then. I’ll try my best to update more often.

I have been updating my other blog (www.odysseytoparenthood.wordpress.com) for those who are interested.

As I’ve mentioned so much has happened, the problem is that we’re just not ready yet to share it all with this particular blog.

Don’t you worry, it’s nothing bad. At least not that we’re aware of.

We’re praying that 2010 will continue to be a blessed year and that soon enough we’ll be able to share the most wonderful news with you all.

Valentine’s Day was last week and Tom and I didn’t do anything special per say. We did have a wonderful Saturday together tough. We went to the movies, we watched Valentine’s Day, and then we went to one of my favorite restaurants PF Changs. I just love that place oh so much.

We had a special time together but then on Valentine’s Day he left to Indiana for work.

How boring it’s been without him. I have NO energy or will to do anything. On a positive note, it’s easier to keep our kitchen and other parts of the house clean while he’s gone. LOL.

I’m just dying for him to get home already. Tomorrow can’t come fast enough. Yes, tomorrow he gets back.

The sucky part is that I have to share him tomorrow tough. My in-laws are coming to visit and we’re going to have an early celebration of Tom’s name day (it’s a Polish tradition).

Both our mothers are going on long vacations. Not together but none the less they’re going. My mother in law is going to Poland in the beginning of march and I have no idea when she’s returning. My mother on the other hand is going to Brasil for the first time in 10 years. Needless to say it’s a very big deal for her. She’s going to be gone for a month and my poor dad is going to be all by himself. I can’t imagine how difficult that’s going to be for him.

I’m hoping that the month of March will go by fast and smoothly. Soon enough it will be summer, right????

For now that’s all. As soon as we can we’ll post some good news.

Thoughts on Becoming a Mother

“There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother.”

You would not believe me if I were to tell you that I went in over 15 stores and I was NOT able to purchase this darn thing.

It all started on Friday night. One of our friends (and boss) invited Tom to go out and celebrate his 30^th birthday.  They decided to go to Hooters and asked me to be their designated driver.

I don’t mind at all. So, I took them to Hooters, dropped them off and I went to buy the Wii.

I went to Costco because it was the closest to where I was and their price was a little cheaper.

Needless to say they were out of it.

That’s when this crazy quest started. I went to best buy, target, game stop, another target, walmart, sams club, toys r us and NOTHING. Everyone was out.

I was super sad. I had to say something to Tom since that was supposed to be my gift and now I had nothing.

The next day, I talked to him and explained what happened. Although he believed me, he gave me that look that said “sure you went to all those places and nothing”.

So, Saturday morning he called Costco at another little town nearby and asked them. They told him that they had it so we headed that way.

Of course once we got there, they didn’t have it. Then our new quest began. We went to Toys r us, target, sears, game stop, blockbuster, another gaming store, walmart, K-mart and NOTHING!

It was “hilarious” that everyone at those stores would tell us to go to their competitors for it and we were the ones to tell them that they were out. It appeared that they didn’t believe us either.

Apparently it’s AFTER the holidays that people go out and shop for that kind of stuff because all we heard from people was “if you came last week, we had tons of them”. Like that was going to help.

Tom and I were pretty bummed out. But once we got home, my super hubby called best buy and customer service was able to help him. We ended up ordering online and we should get it by the 14^th or so.

It’s not the idea that I had in mind but at least he’s getting the gift that I wanted him to get.

Although our Saturday wasn’t the best one, we did have a good time.

We went for “sushi”, and then we caught a movie. We had fun; we’re always able to have fun with each other.

Happy birthday sweetie. I love you very much.

After some very needed vacation we’re back on and trying again.

We got back from Poland on the 27th and by the 30th I already had an appointment with my doctor. He wanted to see me right away and I was very ok with that.

So we started treatment again. I’ve been taking wonderful shots since December 2nd. Yes….shots, in my stomach. To make things even more “interesting” I’ve been taking 2 different medications as of December 6th. My last double shot was the 14th and man was I happy about that.

Yesterday I went to see my doctor again and it seems that my follicles are all ready to go.  Last night I did my last shot to make those follicles release those eggs. Tomorrow morning is going to be the big day for me.

We’ll have our IUI tomorrow and I’m super excited. I’m already a little sore from the medications and I can’t imagine how tomorrow is going to feel.

Thankfully I’m taking tomorrow off. I want to be able to wake up relaxed and get ready for my appointment, then we can head straight home, snuggle under the covers and watch some movies. Just have some one on one time with my sweet husband.

Then I’ll enter the dreadful two week wait. It’s the worst but I’ll somehow get through it. right?! yes, right.

The holidays are just around the corner and at times I get way too emotional but hopefully we’ll have some great news from this treatment and I’ll be able to be emotional for a good reason.

Pray – Pray – Pray.

Our vacation has come to an end and we’re back home. We had a wonderful time in Poland, everyone there was so welcoming and Tom’s family is just wonderful.

Our nieces and nephews are just the cutest things ever. We even tried “stealing” one for ourselves but her dad wasn’t going to let that happen.

We visited many places around Warsaw (which I won’t be able to tell you their names). I’ll check with Tom what their names were then I can post about it.

I’m still not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing that it wasn’t as cold as we expected. We really only had a couple of days that drizzled but that didn’t stop us from walking around or visiting anything.

I was hoping for one day of snow and I unfortunately didn’t get anything. The only time we got anything close to that was the very last day there. As if the weather new that we were leaving or something. We had some major frost, but that was it.

To our surprise the weather was worst here in CA than it was in Poland. We arrived on Friday night and that same night there was snow on the mountains and I got to see that. How funny is that?!

Talking about Friday. First I have to say that I really don’t like flying. It’s not my favorite thing to do at all. Going from LA to Chicago was great. We got emergency exit seats (because Tom is so darn tall) and although we had some trouble checking in (our flight was suppose to be at 9am but they changed it to 8:20am) the flight itself was no problem.

Now the flight from Chicago to Poland was another story. The people from that airline were not friendly at all. Seriously, what is wrong with those people? We did the same thing we always do, went up to them and asked if we could get emergency seats due to Tom’s height, they said ok that they would look into it and then they acted like jackasses .

Eventually when we got into the plane (there were two emergency seats available) and Tom asked the flight attendant to change seats. He said that he would look into it. We eventually got the seats, but they split us up. I was so not happy about that. I hate take offs and landing and I had to seat by myself during takeoff. Tom eventually convinced the lady to switch seats with me and all was ok.

Three hours before landing an old lady seating behind us started to feel bad and things were not looking good for her. Luckily the lady who switched seats with us was a doctor and was able to assist her and care for her.

I have to note that man oh man have the seats gotten shorter and narrower than before.  I have wide hips (ok, not THAT wide) and Tom has long legs……it’s not a good combination.

When we flew back we again had trouble with the same airline. They would not give Tom the emergency seats and he flew for 9 hours cramped in like a sardine. I felt so bad for him.

Luckily when we switched airline from Chicago to LA they were super nice and gave us the extra leg room for Tom. I have to say that flight was the smoothest flight I’ve ever had. I loved it. Whoever the pilot was, he did a great, wonderful job.

Anyway, we had a great time in Poland and it was hard leaving them behind. It was a very bitter sweet feeling leaving Poland. We didn’t want to leave our family behind but we sure missed our home, our dogs….our life here.

Here we are now. I already went to see my doctor and we’re ready to start trying again. As of today I’ve already started my injection and I’ll keep that up until next week.

I really hope that we can have a Christmas miracle. Please pray for us.

PS: I’ll post some pictures of our vacation once we get them all organized.