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Terminating Toxic Relationships


I have had many different reason to post about this before but I believe that now the bucket is overflowing and I can’t take it anymore.

Anyone that knows me, knows very well that I have no issues expressing myself and my feelings towards a situation. With that being said, I do however refrain A LOT when it comes to family. Why? I don’t know. But I do.

Has that helped me in any way? Nope. So why do I do it? No freaking clue.

I grew up with this idea that no matter what happens family is family and there is nothing you can do about it. NOTHING.

Then I moved to the US and I learned a very different way of living life. What I mean by this is, here in the US we are allowed to choose happiness above all. We are allowed to surround ourselves with whatever makes us happy and whatever helps us achieve happiness.

And you know what? I freaking LOVE that. So dear friends and family, if you are a toxic entity in my life, you probably don’t hear from me at all. Or if you have, it was probably to let you know that I don’t care for you and you are not welcomed around me or my children for one reason or another.

Recent events surrounding those who I love have set my skin on fire. I am beyond ticked off for so many reasons I can’t even put into words.
Here’s what I’m going to say though. If you don’t treat those who I love nicely for whatever reason you feel justifies such behavior, then you are NOT going to be part of our lives.

I don’t care who you are. If you are toxic, you are OUT!

If I could speak my mind to those who have come after the ones I love (without causing more trouble for my loved ones) this is what I would say.

It is very heart-rending to watch how sad you chose to live your life. Is is honestly very very sad.

The fact that you purposely make every little thing into an argument and a fight shows me how low you allow yourself to go. And the fact that you chose others around you as a weapon it is honestly the lowest low I have ever witnessed.

Those that really knows our family, are fully aware how material things and monetary value means NOTHING to us. So please, do yourself a favor and do not even try to use that as a punch because it will only make yourself look foolish.

So dear toxic family person, I’m sorry but I can no longer sit on the sideline and watch you hurt someone I love. Until you can figure out a way to be less toxic you simply can’t be a part of our happiness.

To this other individual who hurts yet another member of my family whom I love. Your many years of manipulation might work with some people, but it does NOT work with me. Consider yourself lucky that I am not right there to let you have a piece of my mind, because you know I would.

Somehow we have come to a point where being different for whatever reason is not acceptable. Where showing concern over a situation becomes a personal attack. That is all sad.

For me, part of being happy, mean surrounding yourself with those who will heighten your life and your pursuit of happiness.
Having negativity around you all of the time only attracts even more negativity.

Let’s be happy. Let’s try and be happy.

Let’s Love.

Let’s be done with hate.







Thirteen years ago today I went on a date with this very tall, handsome man. We met at face to face at Starbucks and he asked me out to a movie in the most gentle way possible and even suggested I brought along my brother and his gf so I would feel more safe.

There we were, a Polish white man and a Brazilian Latin woman. Our romance started and it was intense. I think we both knew it from the very beginning.

Our relationship has been unique from the start. When we were together, without anyone else, it felt like we were invincible, there was nothing in the world that could tear us apart.
But unfortunately life wasn’t that simple.

We had many obstacles to face, we had forces working tirelessly against us in order to break us apart. It almost worked a couple of times but we were resilient and we knew that if we stayed together we could get through anything.

We honestly thought that those were the hardest days of our lives.

Little did we know that the hardest days were still ahead of us.

Like many couples, we wanted to expand our family but once again, it wasn’t that simple or that easy. Infertility hit us hard. I always say that we are the Perfect Infertile couple. Someone has to laugh about it so why not us.


If you have been fortunate to not suffer through infertility, then please count your blessings. Aside from the financial struggles, this disease attacks every aspect of your being. It makes you question EVERYTHING and worst yet, it isolates you. But miraculously instead of tearing us apart it brought us even closer to each other and it somehow mended some broken relationships.

For sure those had to be the worst we could ever have to face, right? Wrong again.

We experienced death in our family in the most traumatic way. Suicide.

That has to be the one thing that shook us in a way that can not be explained. It has changed us in a way that has yet to make sense and I hope that it will be for the better one day. Somehow in the midst of this darkness we were able to find out who our true friends were and we even managed to make amazing friends because of it.

Our marriage has been challenged in many different ways, and I have been punched in the gut more times than I wish I had. But our love for each other has stayed strong.
We are a very simple couple, we are humble and we don’t need much to make us happy.

Because of so many adventures in our lives, we don’t have too many local friends and we have found the best of friends within each other. I absolutely Love that.

So, where am I going with this? Marriage is a lot of work. It sure it. But with love and respect for one another we can get through anything. Even through the darkest of times, as long as we lean on each other and see things as our issues, as our problems, then we can conquer the world.

I have been very blessed to have found someone who loves me for who I am.

I have never experienced love like this. There were always comments about my weight or how I look and I found someone that just loves me the way the I am. My husband’s main concern isn’t about the number on my scale, it is about how happy I am with who I am. My husband takes all of me, the good and the bad and I am very grateful for that.

So honey, I love you. You are my best friend and I know that at times we drive each other completely insane, but I know that at the end of the day, there is no one I would rather fight through all of this than you.

13 years ago today, a boy met a girl and asked her out. 11 years ago today we said YES in front of God and all of our friends. I steel do babe. Love, your Koala.


It has been quite some time since I last posted here. Life has been busy but oh so great.

I have 3 amazing children and I just couldn’t be happier. God has really blessed me.



Speaking of children. My adorable, sweet, cute, little boy is starting Kindergarten tomorrow and I just can’t believe this is happening already.

How did time go by so darn fast? Every single person that comes across this news from me is prompt to tell me how from now on life is going to go by much faster and I can’t seem to comprehend that since it has done that already.

Patryck is so very excited to start school. He’s been wanting this for a while and he is ready. With that being said, today was the first day that he showed any signs of being worried about it. He realized, today, that his sisters won’t be there and that for him was something to worry about and he looked oh so sad.

We were getting ready for the day, to get out of the house and to go to daycare. He looked at me and asked me if they were coming too. when I told him no, he just looked sad, like he was going to start crying. It took everything within me not to start crying. That got me thinking, how the HECK am I going to survive tomorrow when I have to drop him off at school?

What if he starts crying? How am I not going to lose it ? Ugh I hate this feeling…………I just hate it
Here’s the thing, he is used to not being with me, he goes to daycare and has been going since he was about 1yr old. so this isn’t anything “new”. But this is the first time he’s going to be a “big boy” not just for me and daddy, but for a whole lot of other adults and kids too.

Today has been a day filled with emotions for me, I’m sure tonight it won’t be easier and tomorrow I’m sure I’ll be a total mess. So if you see me anywhere, please just ignore me looking like a mess. I’m sure I’ll be a total mess and I won’t have it in me to explain it all because lets face it, that will most likely cause me to start crying all over again.

I would like to start this blog up again and perhaps try to capture some of this new chapter of our lives. So when I realize that I blinked and he is in high school or college, maybe, just maybe, I’ll have some of that lightning captured here.

So, if you’re not really wanting to hear all about us and our lives, I’m sorry but this blog is going to be all cheesy and cutesie and all of that. It won’t stop being real and true to who I am. but it will be a little bit more geared towards the kiddos and their adventures.

Here’s to our first miracle’s first day for Kindergarten.

Day 9-a photo you took


My sweet baby boy


our angel baby.


I love our silly little family

This might be a challange but I’m up for it:

1- My son! (how could I not )

2- My husband (without him I wouldn’t have made through all the hard days)

3- My family. My parents and my little brother. love them to pieces.

4-My friends. I have some amazing friends that have helped me through so much.

5- My new job. Everyday I find something else that I love doing

6- My Phone! I wouldn’t live without it

7- My Camera! I LOVE picture and I can’t live without it

8- Our home. I have learned that it doesn’t matter where we live, as long as we’re together it feels wonderful.

9- My computer.

10- Television. It helps me forget about my concerns

11- Food. Specially now that I work with it all of the time

12- Nails, that for sure keeps me distracted.

13- Chocolate. that’s a given, right

14- Organization

15- Responsibility

16- Acting silly with my sweet baby boy

17- Crafts

18- Pinterest

19- Holidays

20- Dreams – the dreams that keeps us going and wanting to better ourselves

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